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Life. A mixed tape of good and bad and everything in between. I am really not sure how I feel about anything right now. I was this little girl once who believed in fairy tales, and happy endings. Then life kicked me in the ass and told me to wake up. I am discovering new things all the time about myself and who I am. I was thinking today about people. People who I no longer have in my life some old best friends, a few crushes, and the guy who told me, I was his best friend. People who are now apart of my life. Life just moves by so quickly. I feel as if I am being left behind in the dust. I am not really sure where I am headed or in which direction I would like to go. I know that indecisiveness will destroy me. I have let things get pass me because I was not to sure if I was making a good decision. A lot of the times because of what others think is best for me. I have although realized that you really need to go with your own instinct your own heart otherwise you may be losing out on something great. I don't think things need to be perfect if they were there would be no mystery no magic no surprise. I love surprises. Things can't always be going good right? Balance. I am tired of people telling me I am pretty. I don't feel pretty. I feel like a monster lives inside me.

why so serious...

I hate conflict. People make things so difficult sometimes. Why? Just let things be. I am a mess inside lately. Im not sure whats up or down. Right or wrong. If its wrong in whose eyes.... peoples beliefs and morals are so different from each other. hypocritical really. It's okay for me but not for you.... Why make life difficult. Love everyone.  Do what makes you happy. If you don't like who you are, change. Don't put blame on other people when things don't work out. Live life.


I am a  halfway child of truth
my life is mine to live.