χαρις

Life. A mixed tape of good and bad and everything in between. I am really not sure how I feel about anything right now. I was this little girl once who believed in fairy tales, and happy endings. Then life kicked me in the ass and told me to wake up. I am discovering new things all the time about myself and who I am. I was thinking today about people. People who I no longer have in my life some old best friends, a few crushes, and the guy who told me, I was his best friend. People who are now apart of my life. Life just moves by so quickly. I feel as if I am being left behind in the dust. I am not really sure where I am headed or in which direction I would like to go. I know that indecisiveness will destroy me. I have let things get pass me because I was not to sure if I was making a good decision. A lot of the times because of what others think is best for me. I have although realized that you really need to go with your own instinct your own heart otherwise you may be losing out on something great. I don't think things need to be perfect if they were there would be no mystery no magic no surprise. I love surprises. Things can't always be going good right? Balance. I am tired of people telling me I am pretty. I don't feel pretty. I feel like a monster lives inside me.